Max Bemis portrait and frame from yesterday. Something totally different for me. Great fun!

Max Bemis portrait and frame from yesterday. Something totally different for me. Great fun!

Sometimes you need to just, stop, take a deep breath and appreciate the simple things. This view never gets old and it’s taken me a long time to just be able to sit here and appreciate it. Natural beauty at it’s finest.

Sometimes you need to just, stop, take a deep breath and appreciate the simple things. This view never gets old and it’s taken me a long time to just be able to sit here and appreciate it. Natural beauty at it’s finest.

🌙Need this t-shirt🌙

🌙Need this t-shirt🌙

🌜Tramadol nights.🌛

🌜Tramadol nights.🌛

So another day of putting on a brave face, a happy face. All I seem to do lately is vent on here, mainly because I don’t really have anyone on here so I feel I can semi talk about how I’m feeling and not get people I know, reading it, asking questions etc. Just seems to be one thing after another. Just when you think the day is going to be semi bearable, something crops up that just takes you right back down. I’ve always thought that I, myself, was a pretty strong person. Lately this view on myself has changed. I’m not strong, I want to be but it’s just too much effort and energy. What little energy I have from day to day is spent on pretending I’m okay.
I just want to be better than I am. I’m not expecting to change over night, to feel completely enlightened all of a sudden, I know there will always be those dark days from time to time.
I just want to have more brighter days, days where I don’t have to pretend everything is okay, just be myself and that be the happy, smiley, fun me with no effort.
Hopefully over time I’ll get there, the brighter will become more frequent than the darker.
It’s all I have to hope for just now, so hope I shall.